April 8th 2012 ~ Being Kind

I have written and deleted this post for a while. Well, to be honest since January!

It always felt so cliche "being kind" and I was always spewing out the ever popular catch phrases, the Golden Rule, Karma and my personal favourite "If you don't have anything nice to say don't say anything at all!" And then I would delete it ... again .... and again. So here we are some two and a half months later and I'm still on the same topic.

..... and then I realised........

This isn't about rattling off all the things we've heard before .... this is about being kind TO MYSELF!

I am my own worst enemy, my worst critic, my head is full of angst and riddled with self doubt. My love of movies and reading ultimately stems from escaping myself.

My son is two on the 21st and with his impending birthday I find myself casting my mind back over the past two years and I am shocked by how much my life has changed and how little I have within.

If you have seen my home this may shock you but I like organisation, I like everything to have a home and for it to be in that home, I like the kitchen to be spotless so I can whip up a baking storm on a whim, I like bills paid on time and the car full of fuel. For the past two years my home has been anything but that.

Now if you are a mum and especially if you are struggling to live on one income you will join me in scoffing and saying, forget about it! And I say it, I do! I ease the angst of other mums out there all the time but it has always been sitting uneasy in my mind. I can rattle on about how I visit other mums and see their perfectly kept homes and how inadequate it makes me feel though I would never ever show it, but I wont.

Some of you know that I have recently decided to join the handmade community and start a little business. While I have been planning away I have been forced to admit to myself that if I aint getting everything done now there is no way in a pink fit I'll be able to get it done while trying to run a business. And then, I did something that I have never done. I started being kind to myself.

And here is what I said to myself:

Stop beating yourself up, short of a cook, a maid and a nanny you can not get everything done and still be a mum, wife, friend, business owner and get the sleep you need. Everything is going to be all right, enjoy your children now, they will be all grown up before you know it.

So in short, yes, blah blah blah be kind to others ..... treat them how you want to be treated in return BUT

ABOVE ALL ELSE

BE KIND TO YOURSELF

(you have my permission)